I once had...

So far I have learnt that there's a much big difference in saying what you had achieved, what actually you lost and what actually was yours. Sometimes we achieve what was not ours while sometimes we do not achieve what was ours. The bicycle I once had with me in my school days was something I was very excited to get in the beginning but as the time passed and I saw my school mates having their engine bikes like scooters and bikes, I start loosing my excitement that I had for my bicycle. I used to think when will I have a bike of my own and when will I run fast, like them. As the time passed, I found myself sick of what I had of my own. The tiredness that I used to have after school, coaching and other such travelling tasks, I could not explain and there was always a yet big another task waiting for me which was doing such things everyday.

Really I used to be very upset with things going around and felt low. Now, after so many years when I have a bike of my own and even a car of my own, I feel no where that I am any bit lesser than anyone else whom I meet everyday. Now I have a choice every morning whether to go office by Bike, another bike or by car. I feel fortunate enough to have such possessions. But now I think I have lost the enormous power that I once used to have in my school days. The courage seems to have gone somewhere. I now visit gym everyday, if not everyday then mostly. There I could see that the bicycle at gym has been defective for months and no one can use it. Every time, when I visit gym, I hope that the bicycle will be in working condition but it is not. Now I think of buying a bicycle of my own so that I do not have to depend on gym one.

That's life and I have now come to know that Life teaches us many lessons out of which this is one of the most precious one. We should never underestimate what we have in our life. We often find the things we have in our life, less than what we think of, but later we realize that we deserve that only. By the time we realize this, we have already done something that takes us very far from getting them again. We feel sorry and curse ourselves of our decisions that time but truly speaking, we never learn from that mistake. We do it once more and again feel sorry.

We have a home, parents, siblings, home made food, our bikes and old friends who always remain with us. But instead of giving them time and attention that they need, we run after other things. We see a colleague enjoying pizza or burger in office when we have with us a home cooked food which is like a daily routine for us. We look for a new car that comes to our office or the new KTM Duke bike which costs more than 1 lakh INR but we have a common bike. We know the complete names and occupation of film stars and their family members but we don't know what our cousins do and where they are at present. We have friends with whom we share, celebrate, roam, watch movies, have fun, and sometimes we fight, argue and show full attitude assuming that things are still in control because we know that they are equally in-complete without us as we are without them. We are expected to be what we are in actual with them as we are said that we are best when we are ourselves and that is how one should be accepted, be it any relationship. However that, at times, makes us take some relations for granted and after sometime we never give any attention to any problems that arise amongst us, assuming that things will get fine one fine day and that one fine day sometimes never come.

By the time things come to an end in our life, be it normal or because of some issues, its already late. We then either try to regain the things or we let things go because we feel we are right and things end with both of us right and nothing left afterwards.

The day we start learning from our mistakes, we will actually start moving ahead in our lives. Otherwise, even if we feel we are moving ahead, we are actually not moving but leaning over and over and someday we may fall. Its not what live gives you that defines you but its what you have given to it that defines you.

I know I regret.

Have never ever written two consecutive posts in two days here in Due Dreams, but today I actually felt like writing, one more. Being someone who likes to write each and every big, small thing that comes to me or I feel, I have written many things till now in past posts in Due Dreams. So many posts that I cannot remember all at once that what all points I have mentioned for what all topics. Each and every post has been the result of any instant thought that came in my mind and may be this is the reason why many of people who tried understanding it, did not succeed. Those who did, appreciated me, and those who did not, considered it to be a wastage of time by me. Whatever I wrote in my past blogs, were my experiences, some actually happened while others I simply thought of.

Regretting is an Art, what I honestly consider it to be. An Art because everyone have their own way of doing it. One may actually feel sorry and say it, while someone else might behave normally assuming that the other person will get the message and all messed up things will now be settled. A few have their signature steps or action of doing this. I may gift a chocolate or a flower or some other gift to regret my faults or I may simply say that I can think of what I have done and my dear friend can take it. Obviously this needs a level of understanding. Not everyone understands the way you regret to them.

We often say to the people who are quite close to us that we do not want any type of regret from them as we consider that we understand each other quite well but from deep inside our heart, we all want the act of regret from our friend whenever something wrong has been done by them. We understand their language and their actions and can very well understand when they say sorry to us. Even after a fight or an argument, if you find your dear friend talking to you the way you always have been, can be a form of regret, which means to forget what has happened and move ahead in life. Its always good to forgive others because we want them in our life forever.

No one on Earth is made perfect. We all make mistakes and thus have to regret for them. If we really care for the ones with whom we do wrong, we should regret in some way or the other. This brings a feeling of care and respect amongst people and the relation we have with them.

Loosing Someone...

Its true that like everyone, I too had lost someone very dear to me and now it has been more than a year being so. Time has once again lost the battle in healing the things and for that I consider Time as a mere cotton for any wound as it does not acts as any ointment but it helps in healing, the natural way. Natural way is always the slowest one and may be its because of this, things are still quite messed up.

Just like the seasons, the Summers, the Winters, Spring and Autumn, good and bad time comes in everyone's life. This time teaches us who we are, where we decided to go once, long time ago, and where we are now even when the pride possessions are no longer with us. We try to live but find it tough, reason being we are so much used to surrounded by people whom we love, we care for and assuming that we are receiving the same. I cared because I know I am being cared. The things ended up and the end was not in my hand but there were people around me to let me know that the ending was somehow still in my hands. I don't have a list of experiences of such kind as I am not that much grown up but still I knew how to react to things that are brought to me. It was something big, really big for me and I come to know the actual value after loosing it only. Again, there is nothing uniquely happened to me, its like I accepted that it happened.

For a change, it made me think how I have been, prior getting it. I was slow, calm, self centered, quiet and most of the times involved in things that are brought to me. I never changed the way or the things that were brought to me. I learnt changing them the way I wanted to, which actually made my life easier, but all the lessons learnt in my golden period are now no longer with me. It feels as if things are to be started from the very beginning with all the old challenges, that were once nothing for me, are now again gaining power. They are getting stronger day by day. Many things that once did not dare to affect me, are now having a significant impact on me, my behavior. Sometimes I think I am pretending and cant help it but its more or less like a continuous struggle for every big or small thing that I want to retain in my life.

The good about something bad is, it teaches us to fight ourselves and no longer make us dependent on others. Now you fight your way; not the others, now you fight for yourself; not for others, now you fight with something with which you are are actually good at; not the one with which you are made to be good at. I was able to discover myself actually as now I felt the same confidence and same will power as was with me long ago. Remember, tough times make people tough. Tough times are to be taken positively, the way I think I took it. I did not find it suitable to end the things in a harsh tone. I maintained the uniqueness of something that was amongst us and will always be there. I know that I will be going to welcome it, if it returns to me, with same warmth and calmness as if it was always with me.

My reason of writing this blog is to make each one of us aware of the fact, that we make relations for us. These relations are not to be taken for granted as someone always suffers because of some misunderstandings. There's always something that keeps the people involved bounded with each other. May be its not visible to us but that doesn't mean that the bond is not there. We can only feel that invisible bond when the same people re-unite. Have Faith in yourself and God. Faith in yourself describes you and your decisions whereas faith in God describes that his creations are only to be loved and cared, irrespective of the fact you know each other or not, intentionally or unintentionally.

Water and Coins

I had my coins and water with me for my survival. In-fact everyone has some water with them for survival and some coins with which one thinks of survival in future. Why am I writing of the coins and water, because I have realized over a period of so many years, that I have lived, that its only water that keeps a person alive and coins which, in past, used to be a medium of arranging water but has now become a reason for a person's survival. We live only for coins and if this is not sufficient for us, we look and snatch someone else's coins. A person lives for many things in his life, be it food, shelter, clothing, love, career, success and many more. These worldly things are the part of human life and no one can live without it. I have referred all these worldly things as coins here and all the feelings, joy, comfort, calmness, sweetness, care and charm as water in this post.
Water is something most important for any person's survival in the same way as all the things I have mentioned above. When we really care for someone, we can do anything for that person and even if we have to face problems in doing so, we never run away but we accept it. We shed tears from our eyes when we see that person in trouble and even when we find them very happy at times, tears come out from our eyes. That's water, the water which is priceless. Priceless because we know how much we are being taken care of by the other person. A person lives for this water and some are lucky enough to get a plenty of that. While some people get a good collection of loved ones with them in their life, there are a few who continue to love others and care for them, while nothing happens vice-versa. These people do not get their share of water but their tendency to support others in times of need make them strong everytime they do so. Very few of such people are able to realize this fact. Love is like a perfume, again a form of water, whose fragrance spreads everywhere and when it gets into hands of people who are made for each other, they keep this perfume very safe with them and thus the fragrance remains in their life forever, otherwise this gets lost by the period of time if its true value is not realized.
Coins on the other hand is like a source of achieving the water. We earn to get shelter and with shelter we take better care of our loved ones, we provide our loved ones with good clothing so as to make them happy and comfortable. Coins are our possessions which, sometimes we get in inheritance and some we earn and make ourselves. Throughout life we run after coins. We want to get good food, want to have good career and achieve as much as success as we can. But this coin has two sides. On one side, it secures us, but on ths other side it creates or it becomes a reason for differences between a person and someone else. In our race for success, we try to run so fast that we often achieve what was supposed to be achieved by others. This forced success or tricky success is the other side of the coin. Everyone starts with his or her career to earn their share of coins, because initially they have nothing or very less coins with them. But by the time they have coins in  their pocket, the greed for the more, arises. It can now only see coins, not the good or the bad ones. Everyone wants a good career and may even get it but by the time he gets what he has once thought of, his greed comes into picture. He now see more coins of someone else's share which he thinks to achieve but any means. Coins are limited but the greed is not.
God has created only water and man created coins as future arrangement of water for survival but the distribution of coins and water is still our hands. We came in the world bare handed and will leave it one day like that only. No water and no coin will be with us the moment we are dead. Despite of knowing this fact, we keep fighting amongst ourselves and always think of achieving someone else's share of coin and water just for the sake of competition.
A healthy competition does not harms anyone but its always a game of winning and loosing at any given instant of time, when the competition is set. No one on earth is superior to anyone in this world. Its like we sometimes get into competition with someone else where we are sometimes weaker than the opponent and sometimes stronger than them. That's all.

You see the Beautiful...

Life is beautiful but this beauty has to be maintained. You see the Beautiful life of yours with so many people around you and keeping your life as beautiful as it is, is your duty forever. The day you will stop caring about it, it will loose its beauty. You try each and everything to keep your life as beautiful as it can ever be. But the question is, the people around you let you do it or not?

We are not alone in this world. Everyone around us is either a person known to you or a stranger. Every non-stranger plays a role in your life. He or she can be your best friend or anyone else as well. The thing what matters is what he or she is doing to make your life beautiful. You know a lot of people. You see the Beautiful in them and make few of them close to you whom you consider beautiful in some or the other way.

Everyone in the world is equally beautiful. The reason why we do not find them that beautiful is because we see the things our way and we see only those aspects of any person which we want to. Rest all the aspects are always left over. So, we want only those people to be with us whom we find beautiful enough and we can define it to ourselves. Like everyone I am fortunate enough to have such people around me. Out of these few beautiful people, we find someone most beautiful and wish to spend our life with them forever. With people, come relations and these relations joins each one of us together.

But if we see the other side of this, we wish to remain with beautiful people around as only till the time we see the beautiful in them. The moment we start considering them not so beautiful, we tend to leave them. Not only the people, the same concept is applied in relations as well. We live a relation only till the time it is beautiful. The moment we find any relation dull, we wish to leave it. This is one face of the story. Its not at all easy to leave anyone with whom we have been so much attached for quite a long period of time. We do so only because we find the reason of leaving them, beautiful. Any relation broken with a beautiful reason, is not wrong. This is what I believe. My friendship got broken with one of my dearest friend, long ago and I was much broken that time but when ever I thought of the reason behind it, I see the beautiful reason behind it. I console myself considering that things ended in a very silent way and we still maintain the decency of the relationship even though it is not there. Thus if I calculate what I lost and what I have now, I see that I lost a beautiful friend for a beautiful reason. I put this as a part of my beautiful life.

The word "Beautiful" has a very vast meaning. Beauty does not means looking beautiful or an attractive appearance. Beautiful means anything that makes you happy and makes your life beautiful. Its something that brings that million dollar smile on your face, which may have gone missing for quite a long time. Beautiful is something that makes you feel great. Not only a living thing can be beautiful, but even a decision can be as beautiful as anything else. Your old jeans, torn jacket or a fresh morning flower may mean equally beautiful to you. Even the worse situations that come to us has something beauty within them. We only need to see it. There can be a great opportunity in it and that opportunity can make our life beautiful. Beauty is not to be looked at, it is to be felt.