Its true that like everyone, I too had lost someone very dear to me and now it has been more than a year being so. Time has once again lost the battle in healing the things and for that I consider Time as a mere cotton for any wound as it does not acts as any ointment but it helps in healing, the natural way. Natural way is always the slowest one and may be its because of this, things are still quite messed up.
Just like the seasons, the Summers, the Winters, Spring and Autumn, good and bad time comes in everyone's life. This time teaches us who we are, where we decided to go once, long time ago, and where we are now even when the pride possessions are no longer with us. We try to live but find it tough, reason being we are so much used to surrounded by people whom we love, we care for and assuming that we are receiving the same. I cared because I know I am being cared. The things ended up and the end was not in my hand but there were people around me to let me know that the ending was somehow still in my hands. I don't have a list of experiences of such kind as I am not that much grown up but still I knew how to react to things that are brought to me. It was something big, really big for me and I come to know the actual value after loosing it only. Again, there is nothing uniquely happened to me, its like I accepted that it happened.
For a change, it made me think how I have been, prior getting it. I was slow, calm, self centered, quiet and most of the times involved in things that are brought to me. I never changed the way or the things that were brought to me. I learnt changing them the way I wanted to, which actually made my life easier, but all the lessons learnt in my golden period are now no longer with me. It feels as if things are to be started from the very beginning with all the old challenges, that were once nothing for me, are now again gaining power. They are getting stronger day by day. Many things that once did not dare to affect me, are now having a significant impact on me, my behavior. Sometimes I think I am pretending and cant help it but its more or less like a continuous struggle for every big or small thing that I want to retain in my life.
The good about something bad is, it teaches us to fight ourselves and no longer make us dependent on others. Now you fight your way; not the others, now you fight for yourself; not for others, now you fight with something with which you are are actually good at; not the one with which you are made to be good at. I was able to discover myself actually as now I felt the same confidence and same will power as was with me long ago. Remember, tough times make people tough. Tough times are to be taken positively, the way I think I took it. I did not find it suitable to end the things in a harsh tone. I maintained the uniqueness of something that was amongst us and will always be there. I know that I will be going to welcome it, if it returns to me, with same warmth and calmness as if it was always with me.
My reason of writing this blog is to make each one of us aware of the fact, that we make relations for us. These relations are not to be taken for granted as someone always suffers because of some misunderstandings. There's always something that keeps the people involved bounded with each other. May be its not visible to us but that doesn't mean that the bond is not there. We can only feel that invisible bond when the same people re-unite. Have Faith in yourself and God. Faith in yourself describes you and your decisions whereas faith in God describes that his creations are only to be loved and cared, irrespective of the fact you know each other or not, intentionally or unintentionally.
Just like the seasons, the Summers, the Winters, Spring and Autumn, good and bad time comes in everyone's life. This time teaches us who we are, where we decided to go once, long time ago, and where we are now even when the pride possessions are no longer with us. We try to live but find it tough, reason being we are so much used to surrounded by people whom we love, we care for and assuming that we are receiving the same. I cared because I know I am being cared. The things ended up and the end was not in my hand but there were people around me to let me know that the ending was somehow still in my hands. I don't have a list of experiences of such kind as I am not that much grown up but still I knew how to react to things that are brought to me. It was something big, really big for me and I come to know the actual value after loosing it only. Again, there is nothing uniquely happened to me, its like I accepted that it happened.
For a change, it made me think how I have been, prior getting it. I was slow, calm, self centered, quiet and most of the times involved in things that are brought to me. I never changed the way or the things that were brought to me. I learnt changing them the way I wanted to, which actually made my life easier, but all the lessons learnt in my golden period are now no longer with me. It feels as if things are to be started from the very beginning with all the old challenges, that were once nothing for me, are now again gaining power. They are getting stronger day by day. Many things that once did not dare to affect me, are now having a significant impact on me, my behavior. Sometimes I think I am pretending and cant help it but its more or less like a continuous struggle for every big or small thing that I want to retain in my life.
The good about something bad is, it teaches us to fight ourselves and no longer make us dependent on others. Now you fight your way; not the others, now you fight for yourself; not for others, now you fight with something with which you are are actually good at; not the one with which you are made to be good at. I was able to discover myself actually as now I felt the same confidence and same will power as was with me long ago. Remember, tough times make people tough. Tough times are to be taken positively, the way I think I took it. I did not find it suitable to end the things in a harsh tone. I maintained the uniqueness of something that was amongst us and will always be there. I know that I will be going to welcome it, if it returns to me, with same warmth and calmness as if it was always with me.
My reason of writing this blog is to make each one of us aware of the fact, that we make relations for us. These relations are not to be taken for granted as someone always suffers because of some misunderstandings. There's always something that keeps the people involved bounded with each other. May be its not visible to us but that doesn't mean that the bond is not there. We can only feel that invisible bond when the same people re-unite. Have Faith in yourself and God. Faith in yourself describes you and your decisions whereas faith in God describes that his creations are only to be loved and cared, irrespective of the fact you know each other or not, intentionally or unintentionally.
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